Sunday, February 21, 2010

A new beach

My Sweetie took me to Edisto Beach yesterday. I've lived in the Charleston area since 1994 and had never been. I have the most awesome scrapbook page drafted in my head, using some flat shells we picked up.

I wish we had brought Casey. I found a lump under her right leg today and just feel like I should spend as much time with her as possible. Get her out of the house and into the world. Everyone, including dogs, should travel and see new things often. Life is full of wonder and pain. The only choice you have is which one to focus on.
I can't sleep right now with all the thoughts spinning in my head. Watching people around me go through such daunting challenges has brought me peace in the face of potential disaster. I am sure none of this makes any sense on the surface, but once you analyze it, which I always do, it becomes perfectly clear. Life will continue to be hard so you may as well just let it roll and capture all the fun you can. Be responsible and plan when it's appropriate, then be spontaneous when that seems right. It's actually easier than it sounds. I have some of the feelings of life being out of my control that would previously have brought on a severe depression. But, I just control what I can do best and let Ramon, Michelle, and whoever else control the rest. Seems to be working better than trying to control it all myself. Go figure.

1 comment:

  1. Life is about comfort and pain, being in control and out, feeling anxiety and calmness, being happy and day by day is a crap shoot and you just have to take it as it comes - but YOU know that. and you know that I know that as well! I am here for you whenever you need me.....and whenever you need me to shut the hell up!!